Observasi: Tugas 'Spesial'

Halo, dunia!

Gue pengen berbagi mengenai sebuah tugas nih, sebuah tugas yang cukup 'menyenangkan'.

Pada tanggal 12 Mei 2012, mata kuliah Psikodiagnostik diganti dari hari senin minggu depan, menjadi hari sabtu minggu tersebut. Berhubung gue udah berniat dan menjadwalkan diri untuk ikutan lecture sulap dari sebulan sebelumnya, terpaksalah gw nggak ikutan mata kuliah tersebut. Masih ada kok absennya, hoho.

Waktu itu udah sempet ijin juga sama Mas Seta untuk nggak ikutan mata kuliah (walaupun tetep diitung absen, sih..) tapi Mas Seta menjanjikan ada tugas khusus bagi mahasiswa yang nggak ikutan kuliah pada hari itu.

Hari seninnya, dengan riang gembira gue mengumpulkan tugas dari yang seminggu sebelumnya via email, sambil bertanya tentang tugas bagi mereka yang nggak masuk. Gue baru sempet ngecek email hari kamis, berhubung beberapa hari sebelumnya disibukkan oleh beberapa kegiatan.

Ketika gue melihat balasan tugasnya, mata gue langsung terbelak, sempat terjungklang hampir jatoh dari kursi ketika ngeliat tugas yang diberikan.

Trip to Jogja: Between Galauness and Competition (part 1)

Hi guys!
Wow, it's been a while since my last post. Time sure flies, eh?

For those of you who enjoy this blog, I might be using English as a language to post in this blog from now on. I do it because this is one of my method to preserve my english skill. In my daily routine, I rarely using english to interact at all. So, by typing this blog with english language, it will keep my skills 'hot' and get a chance to improve it. But I also love bahasa. Jadi jangan khawatir, bakalan ada beberapa tulisan yang pake bahasa Indonesia juga, kok. Hehehe.

Well, the reason why I didn't post so much yet because there are several issues which is:

1. Broken heart state negate my mood to write anything at all. (aaaaawwwwwww)
2. I was joining an event which consume most of my time to prepare it.
3. The first reason actually contribute more to my absence of creating new post. lol.

Anyway, I want to share you guys a story about the second point. I was joining an Model United Nations event. What's that? Well, it is simply a simulation of United Nations commitee. You become a delegate of a country and act as a delegate to solve worldwide problems. You have to think and act based on your country's stances and create a solution derived from your country's stances, past actions, and acts that have been estabilished. There are numerous event of MUN's. Jogja International Model United Nation (JOINMUN) is one of them. And the story, begin..

It was a week before the competition that the first issue occurs. Well, it is an old tale of someone's love life because I believe most people have gone through this phase. My crush was finally declaring her relationship status with somebody else. It'll be a long, countless words to describe how do I feel about it, so it is better for me to describe it with pictures. Moving pictures.

From outside, I was like:

But from the inside, I was like:

..something like that.

Anyway, the result of that issues is an unbalanced behavior. Sometimes I'm being too happy, but most of the time I'm sad. I tend to loafing around, daydreaming, and being silence most of the time. I can become the most ignorant and most sensitive person at the same time. In psychology, we call that defense mechanism. Defense mechanism are unconscious way to cope with reality and maintain self-image. Defense mechanism occurs when expectations doesn't meet with reality. It mess with our minds and disrupting our personality.

According to Psychoanalysis theory by Sigmund Freud, humans have three kind of personality in their mind. They are Id, Ego, and Superego. Id is a type of personality where passion-including sexual passion-is a main thing that needs to be fulfilled. Ego is a type of personality which bridging the Id to fulfill its passion in realistic, more acceptable way. Superego is a type of personality which store a compositions of values, principles, and customs that determine weather something is right or wrong.

What happens in my mind is a friction between Id and Superego. Id wants me to have the crush as my sweetheart no matter what, but Superego said that taking someone's sweetheart is bad. It affects Ego as a bridge for Id to actualize its passion. Since Ego cannot find more subtle, rational way to do it, the defense mechanism unconsciously occurs. Psychology is interesting, eh? :-) I'll talk about it next time.

Back to topic. After one or two days I realized that I am in unstable condition. But then I remember that I have to  focus on the JOINMUN. I still have few days left, so I am trying to focus on the event.

But instead of focus, I messed up. Pretty badly.

At the day of departure I feel like I forgot to repack something, so I have to re-pack my stuff hastily. It turns out that I bring too many unused things with me, which made my bag extra heavy. I also lost my identity card. I realized it was lost when I am about to depart from campus to stations. So I have to get back home and looking for it. I have to use taxi since I need fast and reliable transportation from campus to home. It turned out I wasted Rp. 100.000,- for an identity card. All things happened because I am not focused.

My mom gives me an advice that in order to succeed doing someting, one must focused their mind to what they do. If they don't focus on what they do, it means they are lying to themselves. After that I was realized that I'm fooling myself if I'm not focused to what I do. I promised myself to focus on this event and put aside everything that has been going on.

Me, Gita, Dita, Aya, and Sisca depart from Jakarta at 19.30 pm from Senen Station. To be continued guys, time to stalk some cute girls. Lol.